U want to give your best. U give your best . But when the reckoning time arrives, u see the result - loop holes that u did not imagine comes out in your work.U Stare harder ... At the table when the senior finds out more issues with your deliverable. What startles u more is the fact that those bases which u covered to your comfort starts betraying u. A Few Updated figures start turning back colors. Few discussions u had start getting blurred in your memory at the time it is required to be summoned.
U grind past that day much to the apparent not-fully-satisfied reaction of ur superior.
End of day: U revisit the errors. Promise yourself to be more structured in ur approach next time. work out an outline of approach next time.
Fresh assignment: u take fresh guard. Ur promise of being more organised / structured revisits u. Start planning an approach. Start implementing the same.
Initial days of assignment: start facing problems with following ur structure since the data availability is not as per your plan.
Midway: Deviate significantly from the plan due to time constraints. Your follow up list for data gets wider than the amazon river. Multiple works start flooding your way.
Last leg; Work starts dictating your plan. u go with the flow trying to compare your progress with your plan in bits and pieces.
Slog overs: Once ur work is over, u start reviewing your work for gaps. The bugs start popping out. U diligently sort d bugs out of the deliverables.
Game over - aha! Atleast That's what u think! A familiar tide hits u when it is reviewed by your superior ! (Para 2 and 3 on details of the tide)
The question now is, what is it that stands between intention and execution? Whether it is called focus? Or memory? Or plain fate? How is it that few things do slip from our mind even if we desperately want it to remain? Whether the magic of remembering is to plain try repeatedly? If it is repeated action is the panacea that is required, what happens if the things to remember are varied and change frequently ?
If intent is the one that is required, definitely that requirement is fake since with the best of intentions things may .. Nah things DO slip out of mind.
If focus, what is focus if not intent and thoughts in 'present'. Is there something else to focus that makes it the formidable force legend says it to be.?
Or is it plain facome?
I prefer to call it Fate. It is the edge that one has between slipping up a climb or making the climb in the first try. If the 'time' is good, doesn't 'focus' come automatically ? That's why is it difficult to summon focus at will since it comes only at the time fate calls rather allows it to come?
So why not put the blame on fate and start preparing for the next assignment with the same intensity... This is definitely a defensive mindset but it insulates us from pondering excessively over mistakes or losses - small or big and the frustration of giving it our best and not getting back the same in return .
In times of disappointment fate keeps u sealed from the pain we get hammered with.
Question arising from the post above:
What is that difference between effort and result?
Why is result in most cases, unjust to our (Atleast my) intent and effort?
One opinion expressed above:
Believe in Fate! Ida nan sollalingo …
“What fates impost, that men needs abide; it boots not to resist both wind and tide”
– William Shakespeare apdi nu oru appatakar ae sollirukkar.
