U want to give your best. U give your best . But when the reckoning time arrives, u see the result - loop holes that u did not imagine comes out in your work.U Stare harder ... At the table when the senior finds out more issues with your deliverable. What startles u more is the fact that those bases which u covered to your comfort starts betraying u. A Few Updated figures start turning back colors. Few discussions u had start getting blurred in your memory at the time it is required to be summoned.
U grind past that day much to the apparent not-fully-satisfied reaction of ur superior.
End of day: U revisit the errors. Promise yourself to be more structured in ur approach next time. work out an outline of approach next time.
Fresh assignment: u take fresh guard. Ur promise of being more organised / structured revisits u. Start planning an approach. Start implementing the same.
Initial days of assignment: start facing problems with following ur structure since the data availability is not as per your plan.
Midway: Deviate significantly from the plan due to time constraints. Your follow up list for data gets wider than the amazon river. Multiple works start flooding your way.
Last leg; Work starts dictating your plan. u go with the flow trying to compare your progress with your plan in bits and pieces.
Slog overs: Once ur work is over, u start reviewing your work for gaps. The bugs start popping out. U diligently sort d bugs out of the deliverables.
Game over - aha! Atleast That's what u think! A familiar tide hits u when it is reviewed by your superior ! (Para 2 and 3 on details of the tide)
The question now is, what is it that stands between intention and execution? Whether it is called focus? Or memory? Or plain fate? How is it that few things do slip from our mind even if we desperately want it to remain? Whether the magic of remembering is to plain try repeatedly? If it is repeated action is the panacea that is required, what happens if the things to remember are varied and change frequently ?
If intent is the one that is required, definitely that requirement is fake since with the best of intentions things may .. Nah things DO slip out of mind.
If focus, what is focus if not intent and thoughts in 'present'. Is there something else to focus that makes it the formidable force legend says it to be.?
Or is it plain facome?
I prefer to call it Fate. It is the edge that one has between slipping up a climb or making the climb in the first try. If the 'time' is good, doesn't 'focus' come automatically ? That's why is it difficult to summon focus at will since it comes only at the time fate calls rather allows it to come?
So why not put the blame on fate and start preparing for the next assignment with the same intensity... This is definitely a defensive mindset but it insulates us from pondering excessively over mistakes or losses - small or big and the frustration of giving it our best and not getting back the same in return .
In times of disappointment fate keeps u sealed from the pain we get hammered with.
Question arising from the post above:
What is that difference between effort and result?
Why is result in most cases, unjust to our (Atleast my) intent and effort?
One opinion expressed above:
Believe in Fate! Ida nan sollalingo …
“What fates impost, that men needs abide; it boots not to resist both wind and tide”
– William Shakespeare apdi nu oru appatakar ae sollirukkar.
4 comments:
This is one post that I can relate to for obvious reasons. 2 things that I want to highlight.
1)My view is that a lot of failures(i.e efforts not correlated with results)happen because of desperation... Intent is different from desperation... we need to appreciate the difference.. when u are desperate to do a job successfully,it often ends up in disappointment... when u show intent,it often leads to positive endings...Eg would be .. ( Indian team in 2003 finals were desperate to win.. Indian team in 2011 finals were intent on winning)...
2)I totally agree that blaming fate helps us to move on.. but the problem is while on the next job , you may tend to think that how much ever effort we put , its not in our hands..Our efforts tend to reduce..
and why is Result unjust in most cases...??... well you know , even I am searching for the answer..
dae. Dont flush d point away by saying intent desparation etc. @i am talkin abt desire to perform. Even with desire and effort u dont get something done. What does it reflect? I'm not sure. But what i am sure is there is a way to leverage our effort for result. I dont know what is that X factor tho! Luck? God? Or pure co-incidence?
Onuumae puriyala. Btw, what you want to convey and highlight dude?
- Srivatsan.V
@ JRSD,
A very very delayed response to your post. Totally forgot the post in between. Not been looking at blogs at all (FB impact?!).
I can relate to most of your observations. I have often wondered as what is the reason for such deviations.
I thought of only two reasons -
(a) Motivation: The sudden emptiness we all feel. Despite we being sociable and kind of happy, there is unexplained emptiness. This is where the focus gets diluted, despite our best intentions. We might think that we are putting all the great efforts, but still that "josh" will be missing.
I guess, the reason for such emptiness is attributable to mental fatigue. Too much thinking of trivial, but bothersome, issues burns our energy completely.
(b) Burnol matter on the road not taken. (No explanation will be provided)
There may be even some further reasons. Actually, I have stopped looking too much into it. Still, I would like you to google for something called the "Quarter Life Crisis" (not our Tasmac Quarter). It might provide further inputs.
Cheers
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